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19 April 2008

366 Days

Yesterday marked the 366 days of knowledge.
 
As part of my preparations for that day, I've been gathering all of my energies while making the whole universe conspire together so I can really forget about someone. I am having regrets though, but it can't be helped.
 
It just hurts.
 
 

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05 April 2008

Miserable

I feel miserable. I am bored, I am tired, and I am miserable.
 
I haven't really forgotten him. I still even dream about him. And it always surprises me whenever I come to my senses realizing I am thinking of him. I sometimes wonder if I should ask his help. If so, I'll tell him, "Please help me forget you."
 
I want him out of my soul. But my heart and mind are conspiring together and I couldn't get over him. I could hardly see anyone else because he's all my eyes want to gaze. There were people who tried to get into my heart. But heart was too loyal to him that I couldn't let anyone in. Besides, they're not good enough.
 
I just want this feeling to die naturally. But when? How long should I bear this?
 
 

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03 April 2008

Distress..

I had nothing on my mind lately but to forget him. But just yesterday while watching Rachael Ray's show, I was inspired to learn to cook. But more than that, I had the feeling, the desire to cook for him. It really caught me off guard. I had this familiar feeling of "love" I feel from time to time. It's a feeling that suddenly pops out of nowhere, a light and free feeling to give.
 
Also, yesterday, I've been thinking of my fads. I don't usually get interested in something for a very long time with such passion. But thinking of him, it's been almost a year already. It's been almost a year of undying love for him. Somehow, I begin to believe and accept that I really love him. Yes, because no matter what I do I just couldn't free myself from this love. I still struggle to forget him.
 
I have to go..
 

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